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The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.
-David Foster Wallace

“Bout time we change a few things,
we a slave to the bank and we only wanna buy new shoes.
The way that we think, we can do anything that we really wanna put our minds to.
The American Dream, Dream, is a Pyramid Scheme, Scheme,
and it feels out of reach when it’s hard and the times are tough,
but change starts with us – yup yup.” – Asher Roth

“Why must I feel like this today?  I’m a soldier but afraid sometimes to face the things that may block the sun from shinin’ rays and fill my life with shades of grey but still I long to find a way so today I pray for grace”

“I said what they thought I wasn’t goin’ say.
I did what they thought I wasn’t goin’ to do.
I knew what they really not want me to know.
I’m unpredictable!”
— Mystikal